lend

i dont really like lending my things to other people especially someone who i dont really close, 

except they are my siblings or my  best friends. because i know how they taking care of things and also giving me their things to be borrowed. i will lend them my things without a doubt.

but

it is really hard to say no when someone asking to borrow something. i will definitely say yes. 

then a while after that i will regret because i dont really know them and i'll keep on thinking how they taking care of my things until i get that things back. haha. 

silly me.

friends

a friend who talks bad about their best friend to others is not a good friend instead.

jealous ?

we tend to get jealous when our best friend hanging out with their best friends. it is like.. most of the time and it feel like you become awkward when bumping into each other somewhere.

no we should not. but sometimes we do. admit it.

we said that we cannot. but sometimes we have to.

me myself have like 3 'groups of friends' that i close with. sometimes i had to divide my 'busy' schedule to hang out with them, to care about their feeling when they ask for me to follow.

why am i too nice? am  i ?

ask

when someone suddenly ask u for your opinion regarding something.

you know that u have grown up and more mature than others. 

should i be proud or something ? sometimes it is bothering me. sometimes i cant coop with people's problem. they are burdening me. 

but only for 'sometimes'. but most of the time i am here to hear your problems. 

how ?

when your whole family expressing their dissatisfaction about something, someone or any problems to you and only you.

it is like you are holding something big and heavy on your chest. 

i do not know how long can i hold it . 

how long can i be there to hear their problem ?

and how to manage my own heart ?

treat

rather than treating me like a stranger, i'd like u to treat me like a friend. 

why am i different ?

that feels so rough.

why ?

i also need a shoulder to cry on.

after helping people with their problems . why there is no one for me to lend his/her shoulder ?

or is that because i cant tell anyone bout some problems except you.

yes you. 

but where are you now ?

mad

can i get mad? that 'mad' is more to jealousy.

especially when u said that u fond of sariyanti. even if she is only an artist and dont even know you.

i get jealous when he like someone else. love is crazy. isn't it? 

but

am not sure if i can . can i ?

sick

Whenever i feel sick, i really scared and hate being alone like i'm going to end up alone. Dying alone. Because no one loves me. hah !

marriage

not in the mood to talk about marriage with 'dulang' girls. let Allah decide everything.

excitement

i miss all the excitement while waiting for you to contact me.

counselor

lately i feel like being a counselor who help others by solving their problems.

although i cant even solve mine.